Expect miracles.

I’m leaving today for a three night solo retreat at Vajrapani Center in Boulder Creek. I am craving uninterrupted silence and time in nature. I love the feeling of excitement before a retreat. What will show up? What wants my attention? Retreat is always an opportunity to open to allowing…no agenda, no expectations. Just me and God. Of course this opportunity is always here. In my daily life, I think I need my agendas and expectations but they only seem to get in the way of the miracles, the gifts of life’s unfolding for me. So as I practice deep allowing, I invite you to get out of your own way too. What happens when we stop worrying and instead expect miracles?

I have a client who is in her early twenties and for the past several years has devoted her life to spiritual awakening. It is so inspiring to witness her courage and vulnerability as she connects to her deep wisdom and follows her truth. She said to me recently that she wants to have the experience of going broke so she can really practice trust. I think of this often since she shared it with me. What am I willing to let go of? Can I have the courage to fling myself over my own edge so that I can experience being held?

I love the idea of expecting miracles. A miracle is simply an event or experience that you couldn’t have thought up yourself. When I stay in a mindset of trying to control my life to avoid discomfort, I can’t see all that is possible. But when I surrender, miracles flow in. And I feel held by an intelligence greater than anything I could have imagined.