Nature’s highest priority is evolution.

I am in a big transition right now. Letting go of a successful 25 year career and allowing it to transform into something new is challenging. I’ve noticed a feeling of self-doubt arise as I sit in the unknown. The feeling seems quite old and was most likely the unwanted emotion at the root of the identity I’m unwinding right now: “worker bee.” It’s a common conditioned false belief: If I am productive and busy, I am worthy. There are aspects of this identity that I appreciate and will likely hold on to but I am realizing more and more that everything I need arises in the quiet emptiness of being. Action comes after, not in the service of chasing worthiness but in the service of Life’s becoming through me.

The feeling of self-doubt itself is uncomfortable. It’s old so it feels young and confused and desperate and scared. I disengage the mind from trying to understand it and just let the feeling be there. I sense that it has some teaching for me. I’m softening to what it wants to show me about the unwinding of the old and the creation of the new. As I allow it in, it begins to feel less activated and like an old friend. I sense that it wants to be seen and held and accepted. I intuitively know that it is an important part of my becoming and I welcome it home.

I recently heard my friend and spiritual guide Lucy Grace say, “Nature’s highest priority is evolution.” I love this teaching because it immediately orients my being, my body, my self to the truth. Nature is not interested in comfort, it is devoted to becoming. We are nature. We are always becoming. When I locate the old feeling of self-doubt in my evolution instead of my ego, I can allow it to transform in the loving embrace of awareness.

Can you awaken to your own evolution? Can you rest in knowing that change and growth is inevitable? That the discomfort of transformation is an essential aspect of this process? When we open to it all, we enter into the aliveness of becoming that we feel when we are in nature. It is always showing us this essential truth of our being.